Sorry to hear that he passed. However, he was your builder, not your ex-boyfriend. It seems that you feel that you were more important to his life than you were if you think that a client acknowledging him would have made things different. People do that for various personal reasons like the debt you mentioned. It had nothing to do with you.
He wasn’t your ex or even a close friend, he was your builder. Send up a prayer and move forward. This wasn’t your fault at all.
Nothing to feel bad about. Life goes on. His bad choices have no bearing on you speaking to him. You clearly weren’t of any relevance to him because he didn’t open his mouth to speak to you either. Move on
He was in debt. That likely played more of a role in his decision than you not speaking to him. Don't blame yourself; you're not the cause.
He probably would have still killed himself even after your heartfelt "hey how are things." You shouldn't feel guilty at all and I'm genuinely confused as to why you do.
It’s natural for you to feel the way you do. But I think you feel that way because you recently saw him. If you hadn’t seen him since he fixed your roof and then you heard this news, it wouldn’t have affected you as much. Don’t dwell too much on it because most people that unalive themselves have family that loves them and tries to do everything to make them feel that love but mentally, they’re in a different place. Trust me, he would’ve still done what he done even if you had spoken to him
Life is too short to hold grudges, make up with ppl while you can
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