Saturday, 29 January 2022
Friday, 28 January 2022
Wednesday, 26 January 2022
Tuesday, 25 January 2022
Sunday, 23 January 2022
Granada extensible mesas
" After absorbing Armstrong’s recent missives on the current state of the Globe and combining this with what we know of the existing COVID Biological warfare stakes, the path forward in the coming months and year have become more clear.
Sunday, 16 January 2022
Saturday, 15 January 2022
Oria: An over emotional shepherd's rest
Woke up in the throes of whatever, but made it to the truncated shepherd's rest and a group of mortuary brits. Some what struggled to connect out of the mire of yesterday's olibanum compound, and the deep bruising of things old and collected in the heart. The subtle seep of hurting, that still wont quite give. After the meetup, had a delightful walk around Oria, up past bright colours, and some left open studio, of an abstract artist, to the high fortifications of falling masonry, and a wide, low brim of a view. A Map work circle of valleys. neat patches and greening shadows down below, sewn, and spread, in a vast and impressive circular arc. There was a calmness to this place where soldiers, must have watched for the approach of other territory. A simmering silence, that flowed like eddies around me. I had followed the trail upwards of a group of Spaniards , attaching to their easy happiness so obviously from out of town. A cluster of adolescent boys and girls, those usual tight knit age-mates, the ones that only ever look inwards, never seeing past their edges to whatever lurks alone. These large age groups are the norm here, they think and move as one. Uniformity, set in the sure knowledge of long acquaintance. Well woven, I observed their easy calls and interplays, the easiness of youth, before moving down the hill alone. In the belly of the town I found a small and unusually quiet place, collecting in the stones of a pretty plaza, and a large and salty looming lady of our grace. It reminded me of an Italian piazza, Michael Corleone's wife, on a quiet afternoon-ed day. Something in residence behind closed doors, something put away. That was the kind of old it had. There was a special kind of silence, here, something far more gathered, than the usual set of siestas in small obscure, out of the way places. This old plaza, with it's one eyed dog, and absence of greeting, had something unique and quiet to say. Here for a moment on a warm, step, in the quiet wind, watching the Amazon man trying after several attempts to make a difficult delivery, I sat and tried to feel my way. Letting the afternoon winter sun, sift past the threatening emergence of lost and covered things, olong paths that discreetly obscure the way. From there it was back through other places: back rides, and rough roads, that were singular but correct. Anxious cuttings, and dark sure forests, that somehow emerged in Cullar. Somewhere that I knew. From there it was, on instinct, to Mercadona, dodging old patterns, and the toilet out pourings, of the usual one way streets. People who got to know me too easy for my own good. Drawing up my bridges, and guardians; I bought kefir, and ribs, and went home to where "Judy" and a fire awaited. Next time my Olibanum compound is getting reduced by 1/3. MB
Thursday, 13 January 2022
Printing my diary
The side door was opened, to reveal a low rim of cloud over the mountain, like heavy exhaled smoke, all blues and greys. A cold wreath for a gray day. As things wept and bled, steadfastly to their closure. The world non opening to it's past, moving against logic. Mute to the consequences of harm. Unseen things are playing out. The non speaking terms of our surrender. The confining limits to come. Humanity swept up and in rebellion against it self, like some hurtling wave. Breaking against it's doom. We all gasp in one breath, one shout, one cry, our capacity swallowed all the way. So I closed the door against the cold, against answers, cries and prayers. Against the grey winding, unlooping chaos of the year. Against the bitter threat of nobody being there. This is the time of our aloneness MB
Wednesday, 12 January 2022
Any old wood/ the marriage contract+ evening music /emotional regulation.
In the afternoon I walked the river bottom, past the brutal stubs of an ever increasingly blackened graveyard of trees. The Spanish with their cruelty. The left shavings of mindless stabs at nature. Irreverence. It is like seeing rotting whale carcases, big old bleaching bones moving like gaping wounds up through the earth, with their blackened steeped tangles. They will not and cannot rot away. Instead Thrusting out in violent opposition, to whatever that was done. There is no dignity, with these deaths. They stain the earth. They indict man, with their left over hauntings. Like violator's rubble that Cant move or hide it's self. Each one of those knobbly rheumatic, hacked off fists accuse with their now blunt limbs. They lumber against the murder of their kind, and all the brutality that has been visited upon them. I walked the sand in a single line, collecting what was left. Following the march away from death. Past the gaping lines, of halting winter. A pock marked mouth, of leafless dreams, now all that 's left. I found a new way home. Some other quarter. Steep with eyeless sentries. Looking past the chaos of the river bottom, with the occasional painted crown. Rows of folly upon a censured hill. The dogs howling far off ,punctuating the climb. Ascending with the rise, past black faced inquisitive goats , behind mesh and wonder. The smell of their nature carrying with my thoughts. Back into civility, above and beyond the gloss. Back into the dainty and petite of white washed walls, and European cars, with a Japanese exhaust. These are strange people, heartless somehow. Definitely closed. Ham strung together in their clannish pride. I the outsider. Nature, even with her abrupt, cruel brutality, is the only thing that reaches me. I with my different walk. In the evening there was music and a movement of words, the last capture away from the winter. A sacred marriage contract made. The start of a commitment. The night Crowned with the wood that I had carried up from the bottom. Dead, old boned Wood that burned to fire. MB
Monday, 10 January 2022
Saturday, 8 January 2022
Friday, 7 January 2022
The original greatest of all time /red crocs and Baza's own Guggenheim.
I grew up, on huggy bears and pimps, and goons and felons. That was all Movie-TV land would ever let a black men be in the 60's and 70's. Some where between a menace and a bumbling, failing, hopeless disaster of a slave. Until Sidney Poitier came along. Sidney Poitier with his agency, dignity, regal intelligence, sovereignty, power and class. Sidney Poitier dared to look movie-TV land in the eye. Unashamedly, uncompromisingly and unflinchingly equal . Sidney Poitier changed EVERYTHNG! Rest in glory my brother. MB
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Thursday, 6 January 2022
Wednesday, 5 January 2022
Tuesday, 4 January 2022
Being absolutely excoriated and decimated by whatever is coming in through the walls/ new bed set up.
"Don’t engage in a discussion about your morals, your character or YOU. You’re defending your rights not your morals. You’re arguing for women not for yourself. Don’t let it get personal, the second you reply in defence of yourself eg “I’m not phobic” all you do is show a weakness that you care what people think of you and they will exploit that to the point where you find that you’re arguing that you’re not a transphobe rather than arguing that women deserve to be recognised as a real class of people separate from men." Amanda Ciudat