By the pricking of my thumbs... the ferria and the 9th??

 

That explains the dread of the last few weeks

 

The night before ceragem/primal stuck gouging

  The world had run her over. Inner Secrets moribund, advanced communications gone. The words no longer spoke. The stars no longer shone MB 

Back up part I ( poems from before)

 

09.01.24

The shield man's stop.

It is shut and folded, a moderate inflammation. Empty unguarded walls run, dried-out, dead. Here all the colours bleed; The lost hard expressions within the remnants of not said. Jilted, steady warriors, in an ashen waxy set. He is a fallen man, bearing small meagre things, old things from a drying world, odd things things that even now feel the calling of the hour. A temporaryness. Love abandoned here.

25.02.24

Prayer and morning pages again/ forever final last two weeks with manji?

Manjiism

She had fallen off too quickly, too smashed by the forced fiction; The steady, everyday, non stop,over-pressing momentum of the last 12 weeks.  Everything had become outside. Haphazard, and unsteady in the self. Moving too quickly in the agony of electronics and over arching people please. No wonder it had got lost. The artist's voice?  The  one true rhythm of the self? Those struggles of the reaches with the  false base beneath. This is  9-5 fighting.Inside the hammering present, and the drowning of right just to be. MB

get me back to this: 

Granada airport 8th november ( 23)

Recent trials

The phone had rung deliberately, shrill and urgent, piercing her indecision, with the last batterings of a life that was closing. She knew that, as she had looked towards the forbidding monster, an ugly last century monstrous bakelite, that she had never liked. But lucka had, and Luka had chosen it, on some anniversary somewhere..Back when he had tried to carry all the things, that she could no longer bare to know, until finally, they had both decidedly broken.

The phone had continued to wail on and off like a hungry child; as she had tacked across the rich herring bone floors. French white oak. Imported; and still incessant and repeating, the phone had continued as she had picked up her cases, and walked out of her own front door. The keys she posted through the letterbox. A distraught luca would would find them later. He had loved her, in between all her absent spaces, and for a while she had loved him back, until today, not unlike an exit that opens too quickly, and without air or reason, she had breached towards the surface. To  crowded  sky, in abstract forms, low against brown and distant hills, even with the drone of the air port behind it. Whatever it was she recognised this place, as a place without restraint, without pretence. Just another somewhere moving in a new light. Shifting her bags, a taxi, had approached, like on old man fumbling his way out of the now crowded taxi rank; “where to” he had said, as she had hopped onto the back seat of the car. in a strange growl that was so particular of these parts. For a while she had said nothing, distracted by the people on the side walk of the rank, struggling with luggage, whilst foraging for a mutually offered encompasing embrace; clumps of overcome distance mixed with the half familiar,like a pair of old loves, in a tight circle, and a small child. They were caught in some rudimentary procession, that she was unfamiliar with. The sorties of the connected. And so the driver had asked again, but this time, she had met his eyes, with the covering distance of her own, he had paused looking at her through the mirror, as if in semi doubt; before finally answering for her “ the centre”? And she so had assented not so much in words, but with something that this new place, unlike Luka, would immediately understand. And so he had pulled out into the burgeoning stream of others; she with her head still turned to watch the last of the reuniting family, just as the old man, jolly and brave had lifted up the small and squirming child, like a great papa bear pawing with a salmon. With one last glimpse she had watched them disappear; as the car snaked out fast now,in a new direction towards the new and distant city, with all it's histories that sit around  edges, things she knows she will have to face later. But now was only for the smooth soft momentum, of being capably carried, stretched out, and sunk comfortably back in her seat.. MB

KW's tribunal report

 

Trudging through the days, the fighting,skimming dark. The world worn heavy, things not freed up. The day went smooth, Farhad was calm. Got shouted out (several times),  a apocryphal firm up and adjust. But  still the roads slide away. In the afternoon, got zoomed in the high towers, the aberration of heat, spewed over by the great things on tall buildings, the flat screens and hard beasts, that boom and beat, and beat. It was all flouro yellow, but then there was a tree. The failing iron oxide, light and life colours, that soft -float gently towards the dead. The great earth, and her wide girth. Sixty years of old fingers, hovering over me. The home beat - wotsits, and salted caramel. To bath boil,in gently speculating death.The rip tides. The rides, and gentry. Stretched and stressed again. My sink holds, of the upper chanels. Sink holds that mean that at last I can again speak. MB

Friday sim pies and DHL/ customs robbery

 

Money matters

Can't watch crime any more. Jiha Khan.

 what does the universe want me to do for money

The excerpt represents the core issue or deciding factor on which you must meditate, and is drawn from U. S. Project Trinity Report by Carl Maag and Steve Rohrer: with the civilians (7; 12). Most of the military personnel were part of the Army Corps of Engineers, although Navy and other Army personnel were also assigned to the project (4; 12). CHAPTER 2 THE ACTIVITIES AT PROJECT TRINITY The TRINITY nuclear device was detonated on a 100-foot tower (shown in figure 2-1) at UTM coordinates 630266 on the Alamogordo Bombing Range, New Mexico, at 0530 Mountain War Time, on 16 July 1945. The detonation had a yield of 19 kilotons and left an impression 2.9 meters deep and 335 meters wide. The cloud resulting from the detonation rose to an altitude of 35,000 feet (5). The TRINITY how do I pay my bills without selling my gold? The excerpt represents the core issue or deciding factor on which you must meditate, and is drawn from Blix by Frank Norris: hilarity. "The next event upon our interesting programme," he announced, "will be a banjosephine obligato in A-sia minor, by that justly renowned impresario, Signor Conde Tin-pani Rivers, specially engaged for this performance; with a pleasing and pan-hellenic song-and-dance turn by Miss Travis Bessemer, the infant phenomenon, otherwise known as 'Babby Bessie.'" "You're not going to play that banjo here?" said Travis, as he stripped away the canvas covering

Selling MOG perhaps? . The session.

https://www.anothermag.com/fashion-beauty/10105/charting-elizabeth-taylors-powerful-costumes-in-cleopatra 

Understanding the "Great Reset" The people who own 90% of the world's wealth want the remaining ten per cent". Makow

Weeding the fig.

 where am I?

Immediate Future : 10 of Rainbows

The 10 of Pentacles is a very positive omen. It can mean that your material wishes will be met – perhaps to a degree that you would not have thought possible, and that in general, things will be going exceedingly well for you. Security in all forms is at a high ebb.

The 10 of Pentacles in general says that you have a great deal to be thankful for. Relationships of all kinds, finance, health, all should be going well. Consider how you got to this happy situation. Make the best of it, and be sure to share what you have, even if it's only a kind word spoken to someone in need. We get back what we give out. When the 10 of Pentacles appears, the answer to any financial question is likely to be a resounding and upbeat "yes." Money should be flowing better than it has done for a while. You should have more than enough money to meet your needs. Invest in your future and save some of what is coming in now.

"Try, Fail, Adjust, Repeat". Normalize walking away from relationships that constantly make withdrawals but never make deposits.

 How can I earn a living ethically and with integrity?

Your task : 8 of Fire

A lot of things may be up in the air for you when the 8 of Wands appears. You may be frustrated, tired of waiting. This card is an indicator to be patient a while longer. You may have already done all you can do, and decisions now must be made by other people.

Nothing seems to be moving ahead. Don't try to force things, as that is likely to backfire on you. Speaking metaphorically, sometimes our actions are all in the wrist, all you can do is put your best out there and see where it lands. You've put your best out there. Now wait. For most of us, patience can be a difficult spiritual lesson to grapple with. However when this card appears, it's a clear signal that stillness and patience are issues that you need to work on. Meditation is helpful now. If you can't sit still and meditate for twenty minutes, that's fine… start with thirty seconds. With stillness, very often, comes peace. Look for it.

Possible solution : 9 of Fire

This card can indicate anxiety and worry - being burdened and keyed up over concerns.

The first and best step is often to take a deep breath and calm down. Don't let the things you are worried about overwhelm you. Take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, if you must. At least some of your worries will very likely turn out to be imaginary. Get very specific on what you are afraid of and pick it apart. What is the true likelihood of the worry actually happening? Comfort yourself, and if you need help, don't hesitate to ask for it. Asking for help is the mark of a strong person. You may not be very inclined to discipline yourself, but even so discipline will help you meet your spiritual goals. Focus, plan, call yourself to higher levels of spiritual study and commitment. You have the strength within you to get where you want to be.

I have a session on the 14th

 what should i do for money

The excerpt represents the core issue or deciding factor on which you must meditate, and is drawn from Roads of Destiny by O. Henry: fifty dollars with a search-warrant, but I can stand half. What you come bidding against me for?" "I thought I was the only fool in the crowd," explained Robbins. No one else bidding, the statue was knocked down to the syndicate at their last offer. Dumars remained with the prize, while Robbins hurried forth to wring from the resources and credit of both the price. He soon returned with the money, and the two musketeers loaded their precious package into a carriage and drove with it to Dumars's room, in old Chartres Street, nearby. They lugged it, covered with a cloth, up the stairs, and deposited it on a table. A hundred pounds it weighed, if an ounce, and at that estimate, according to their Artist: Betsy Lundquist

Broken phones, nervous B's and the wear of speaking to God.

 What!" cried Wilfrid, in despair, "can the riches of art, the riches of worlds, the splendors of a court--" Seraphita by Honore de Balzac:

Now, these wandering soldiers of fortune Thuvia, Maid of Mars by Edgar Rice Burroughs:

York ridicules him for "blowing" so much money in that town of sneaks and snobs, and sneers  The Gentle Grafter by O. Henry:

Been picking death all week.. ( and possibly movement)

 

Down to the wire. Didn't win. No where to turn. But pendulum chakras work.

 Current situation : 6 of Wands

The 6 of Wands is a very positive omen. It can indicate that despite the challenges you are facing, you will overcome them and come out on top. This card also points toward literal or metaphorical movement; things are changing, in a positive way.

You are about to see some results for your hard work and efforts. Give yourself a break or treat yourself in some way. You have certainly earned it.

If you're looking for a position, this card is a very positive portent. You will find something that is better than you dared hope. If you're currently in a position that you want to stay in - things are about to get even better at work for you than you would have hoped. Your efforts are valued. Just keep doing what you are doing.

Immediate Future : 7 of Pentacles

This is very often a card about returns on investments. This can be literal such as a bank account returning money to you, or figuratively, such as the investments of time, effort, and energy that you have put into a relationship. You will be reaping what you have sown. This is generally positive.

You should be feeling more secure than you have in a while. Things will be moving along well, and you'll be feeling hopeful about the future - with good cause. You may have to decide whether to put your energy into the things, people, and situations that you already are involved with, or whether to spend your energy trying to bring more into your life. Choose wisely.

Your work is likely to be going smoothly and you will be reaping the rewards of past efforts - what is happening now or in the immediate future will be a direct result of what you have done in the past. Your finances are likely to be flowing well - you may not be "rolling" in money but you will certainly have enough to get by, and then some.

Difficulties you will face : Queen of Cups

This card indicates compassion, love, and concern for ourselves and others. The Queen of Cups could represent a woman in your life.

Female energy is solidly "in your corner," women in your life are very much supportive of you and/or a woman will come to your aid. The Queen of Cups ia also a reminder to treat yourself with love and compassion. No matter who and where you are, there are things in you that are worthy of love and respect.

In the context of work this card usually indicates a woman will be very helpful to you. Try to bring love and compassion to your work. This should be possible even if you work with objects rather than people. Things are probably better in your working world than you are realizing. Think positively.

Your strengths : 4 of Swords

This card signifies a break (or need for a break) from normal life. This can also mean that you or someone in your life may withdraw for a time. This withdrawal is not likely to be permanent. It also occasionally means illness or time in the hospital or (even more rarely) in jail. It's a clear signifier to give people their space.

The 4 of Swords usually means that you are needing some time and space to yourself. Others may be pushing too hard for bits of your time and attention. Don't hesitate to draw boundaries for yourself or to say no. Conversely, when others say no to you, take them at their word. Pushing in this circumstance is asking for trouble.

Take some time off from work if you can (even a long weekend.) you need a break and some perspective. Things are not likely to be going as you would like them to - don't take this personally or try to push harder. Sometimes we just need to be patient with the process. If you can't stand the need for patience, perhaps the time has come to start looking for another position.

The result : The Hanged Man

You are at a crossroads - one with only two options: in or out, up or down, yes or no, etc. You may find yourself very much wanting to do something but having no idea what it is or how to do it. If that happens, that's a clear sign that you should stop, relax, and look at ways that you might need to let go of attempts to control life/situations/people/things.

It's possible that there is an outdated attitude or wish that you need to let go of. Any sacrifice that you make will open up your life to something even more positive than what you let go of. All in all this should be a thoughtful, reflective time, particularly if you are willing to look at if or how you might best serve your own interests by being willing to change.

Nothing much may seem to be happening, and you may well be sick of it. This is a great time to figure out if there is anything that you personally can do about it and if there is not an action that you can take, then try not to take the slowness of the wheels of change personally. Things will change eventually. It just may not happen on your timetable. Relax, or else look for different work.

Heart stops and the Gobierno tributario.

 "I think the universe is taking care of me.. something goes wrong, and something else happens and it's better" William Shatner

The estanco has no covertura.

  Do not fear the unknown; many blessings reside for you there.

Situation : The Magician

This card is about making higher - and better - use of all of one's power. Spiritual, emotional, and otherwise. This is another card that often signifies new beginnings and great expectations. This is a very powerful, positive omen in a reading. This card reminds us that we have the power to make a difference, in our lives and in the greater world, if we simply make a point to try.

You may notice many synchronicities, which point towards deep, spiritual events taking place regardless of the "importance" of their superficial appearances. You should be finding that you have the knowledge, strength, and inspiration needed to meet your challenges. In general this is a very positive time for you. Money should be on the upswing when this card appears - even if no feasible way for this to happen is apparent at the time you do your reading. Something will appear that will allow you to make more money, whether this is an idea, a chance to do some work "on the side" or even a new position. Have faith in yourself and your ability to succeed.

Challenges/Opportunities : 9 of Cups

The 9 of Cups is one of the most uplifting and pleasant cards to receive in a reading. Known often as the "wish card" it can mean that what you are hoping for or dreaming about most is very likely to be yours – in a brief period of time, generally, too.

The appearance of this card is usually a portent of happiness, and good things about to come. It also usually means that what you want is likely to come into being in your life. If asking a yes/no type of question, this card is the most powerful indicator of "yes", but like everything else in the tarot, that is not carved in stone. As this card is a very powerful positive harbinger, it speaks well of your finances. This card can mean that the financial situation you are visualizing may well come to pass, although probably not exactly in the way that you wished for it to do.

Near future : Ace of Pentacles

The Ace of Pentacles is likely to find you enjoying a new beginning on several levels, and this is a very positive new beginning. Your health and vitality is likely to be at a high point. The appearance of this card is usually the sign of a turn for the better in terms of fortune and wealth, and sometimes it can even indicate gifts of money, or inheritance from unexpected sources but it certainly doesn't mean that someone has to pass over for you to receive this inheritance.

You are likely to be feeling optimistic, upbeat, and hopeful about your future. Things should be going well, in general. You could well be starting something new very soon, this could be in the realm of work or personally, but either way, it's a good thing. Money is looking to be much more available for you when the Ace of Pentacles appears. You are likely to be able to pay off debts and there will even be an ability to share your wealth with those less fortunate than you. This is not a time to spend everything you get, however. Plan for a rainy day.

Scorpio tonight. Arguing the data.

 Heavy indulgences. The un-firm below. A hollowing of cause, as form dies. Where will we bring ourselves? what will rise? MB

We walk by faith not by sight. ( Mercedes packing)

 It could refer to the lottery or church raffle, but expect a win of some sort in your future.

Down to the wire levels of crazy.

 "Friendships based on shared values are more durable and long-lasting than friendships based on mutual interests." wiseconnector